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Saturday, 03 May 2008

I'm Done: A moment of truth

Call me fickle but I'm bored. All this sex talk does me no good. I never thought the day would come when I'd be bored with sex talk, sex acts, and cybering... but I am! It's not that all the people messaging me aren't good at, its been good! And I've had fun trading stories and messages and all that jazz.

Still, it's not filling. There's a void in me and I thought I could fill with little things, and I was wrong. I tried to fill it with relationships. You can see that didn't work in my "Confession" post. Then I thought hooking up with people would, and building this blog, or messaging kinky things, doing sexy stuff to myself. But all of it has done nothing but left me a very temporary satisfaction.

I'm tired of being selfish. I'm tired of holding secrets. I'm tired of being a hypocrite. I'm tired of living a shallow life. For years I've lived this way and I'm TIRED of it!

It's time to make a change in life. I graduated from college a week ago, and it's time I grew up and started acting like the woman I want to be, the woman God created me to be. And I don't want my younger siblings living the way I have. What kind of an example am I setting for them to live this empty lifestyle?

I don't know if any of you have ever felt this way before, but I'd challenge you to look over your life and really think about how its been lived. Do you regret any of it? Do you have anything to show for the way you've spent your life and your time? Have you gained the whole world... or just lost your soul in the process?

I'm not trying to preach or convert anyone, I'm just sharing my thoughts and letting you all know that I won't be talking to you the way I have been anymore. I'll kill this blog eventually, but I wanted to leave this last post as an explanation first.

You guys have been some fun friends! Thanks. Take it easy... and live your life well!

Peace and later days.

(*(Chelle)*)

Monday, 28 April 2008

Typically horny...

It so feels like everyone person on Xanga is dramic or horny... or both! A crazy combination. So I'm just joining the crowd today... horn dog right here!!!

I've loved the messages I've gotten recently, and thanks to all my new friends =) It makes my life have a little dirty side. This is a good place for me to unwind, yah know? Reading your messages makes me HORNY!! Where is a good dick or pair of hands when i need them? lol

I love comments and messages. I leave them as much as I can, so if you hit me up I wont fail yah.

Have good week ya'll.

lata!

Chelle...

Monday, 21 April 2008

Confession...

I masturbate fairly often, and it's hard to get off a lot of the time. Mostly because I have a hard time getting a "visual" to turn me on. Touching myself alone doesn't always do the trick.

So here's my confession... I get on here to look up and find as many sexy, horny, bi or les girls I can to lust over their pictures and get myself so FREAKIN turned on.

I'm not gay at all. I'm not even bi. So why does it take a girl to get me aroused when I need to masturbate? Maybe I just wish I was in their place of such openness...

I can't speak out like this with my friends or family or they would think I'm nuts!

Maybe its because they would "get me" more than a guy would. The guys I've hooked up with lately just dont seem to know how to read a girl. I try to read a guy really when Im hooking up with him so I know what he likes, what he doesnt, what works, etc. But I never get that in return. And maybe, just maybe, girls would get that???

Any thoughts, ideas, solutions?!?!

In the mean time... I'd love to have a good fingering fest right now. So any pictures or vids of male-female makeouts or sex... BRING IT OUT!! Pour me OUT baby.

I WANNA CUM!